 EMPLOYEES OF THE MONTH
This issue was written by people with mental illnesses from hospitals in London, Berlin, Stockholm and a day centre care program in Northfield, Illinois, USA. The place is called WilPower, and people spend their time there in groups doing things like dancing and discussing current events. It's such ...
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  DOS & DON'TS
This is the truth: two LES officers busted some chief and confiscated his DOs & DON'Ts book. Then they noticed a cop from their precinct was made fun in it of for dressing like he played bass in Crazy Town. The book became an NYPD hit (except for the Crazy Town cop, who is getting sick of being call...
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 HANGING WITH HILLARY
The Best Day of My LifeMy senior year was the best year of high school by far. I didn't rule the school, but I represented both Nutria East and West when I was on the air as a DJ at WNTH, 88.1 FM, the voice of Nutria High. This was from October of 78 to June of 79.
Three months after high school, I got a pro radi...
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 KILLING JOHN
The Worst Days of My LifeI obviously have some problems. Maybe you could call me mentally ill and I'd say, OK, that's fine. I do live in a group home.
I'm on four different psych meds. Depakoate is a mood stabilizer I take because I go up-and-down and up-and-down due to bipolar disorder. Then there's Risperdal, whi...
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 GROSS JAR
February was a good time to be the Gross Jar. After absorbing the full load of last month's ingredient and being returned to the windowsill, the jar's contents settled into layers and quickly froze, providing a clear cross-section of its constituent parts and looking not unlike the fetal pig from hi...
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 MY MEDS
What I Have to SwallowI'm 26, bipolar, and manic. I'm on four different medications. Clozaril is an anti-depressant. I take both 50- and 100- mg pills of it. I used to take Prozac, but it only worked for a little bit and then it plateaued. Then I tried Paxil, and it was the same thing. My mom reads up on all the medicati...
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 LITERARY
The Wu-Tang Manual, Everything Bad is Good for You, Harold's End, Sturgeon White MossThe Wu-Tang Manual
By The RZA
Penguin Books
Have you ever wondered exactly why RZA was "perpendicular to the square" on "Triumph"? Or what the Wu's drug of choice was when they recorded their first album? Or why Masta Killa liked to be called Noodles? It's OK, we all have. ...
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 MOTHER KNOWS BEST
My Recipe for a Great KidMy son Tim is autistic and he's five years old and can't communicate great. He only knows a little bit of talking. He echoes us a little bit. My husband and I learned sign language to talk to him. The other day he was on the couch and I said to him, "Mr. Kogen! Mr. Kogen! Get down, please!" and he t...
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 OUT THERE
Just in case you haven't heard, grime music fucking rules England now and is soon to be huge in America. We were on it before anyone else over here, so we figured we'd best give you a Grime 101 now before it's too late and Grime Lite is all over McDonald's commercials.
Once upon a time (199...
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 THE REAL WORLD
Does It Get Any Better?The Real World is my favorite show of all time because it's very hilarious. On The Real World You Never Saw DVDs, you get to see more funny stuff you never saw from all the roommates of whichever season they are doing that DVD about. There's bloopers (those are when they make stupid mi...
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 SHOVE THE DOVE
Getting Over the NewsYou know that Pink Floyd song that goes, "The memories of a man in his old age are the deeds of a man in his prime"? I sort of feel that way thinking back on my life. I've had electroshock treatment and been diagnosed depressed, bipolar, and schizoaffective. I have sort of a delusional system of ide...
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 POCKETS DUMB FAT
June, 2002: We first met Turf Talk back when he was still Young, splayed out on the floor of Vallejo's 80 West Music like the eager kid that he was. In the main studio room was Jay Tee, lately of Latino Velvet but most notably of N2Deep (they of the lone hit "Back To The Hotel"), sitting in front of...
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 GOD IS EVERYWHERE
I Know, He Told Me SoPsychiatry is only a 100-year-old science, and we're just starting to understand the brain. People might call me deluded for saying that, but I think things are a little too new. That's why I was misdiagnosed. I've been told that I have bipolar disorder and major depression. Bipolar disorder is the ...
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 HEY, COME HERE
I Want to Tell You SomethingMy name is Glori Anderson from Niles, Illinois.
I didn't want to come here. When I came here, I got scared. Everyone was sleeping–the whole place was sleeping. I think they were all overmedicated. My psychiatrist told me, "You are not–NOT–mentally ill." I had attention deficit syndrome sinc...
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 SKINEMA
What's up with black people being all into Ecstasy lately? Talk about being late to dinner. Has no one heard of a little thing called the internet? ...
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 LESSONS IN LOVE
No. 1, Don't Date CrackheadsWhen I went on Social Security/Disability, I had a lot of time on my hands. When I used to go through anxiety attacks or depression, it would last just about a week or two, but at that time I found myself in a severe depression, and I needed to start doing things differently. I needed a better recov...
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 TIDBITS
A monthly look at things we love - v12n2(a look at the things we found in a day program for the mentally ill in chicago)...
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 HOW I SPENT MY VACATION?
Going to Florida on a Whim's NoticeWhen I'm on a manic spin, I'm ridiculously impulsive and I'm barely conscious of what I'm doing. The part that makes it especially confusing is that I feel totally normal when it's happening, even though most people would look at me and see a derelict. I stop shaving and I don't shower. I'll just ru...
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 THE VICE GUIDE TO ROB'S WALL
My favorite place is my room, because I like to come up here and have some privacy. This is my bedroom wall.
BASKETBALL
The whole house went to a Bulls game. This is Kirk Kinrich. He played for Kansas in college and he plays for the Bulls now in the pros. That's a picture of him...
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 GUNSHOTS AND DYNAMITE
Working Past the VisionsI liked alcohol right from the start, and I got drunk off my very first load. I was 12 or 13 then. I guess it was around 1973. Liquor really clicked with me, and I was drinking pretty heavily from 13 until about 23 years of age. I got to the point where I was wet-brained–I mean, I had about two brai...
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 HAVE YOU HEARD THESE GUYS?!?
The Beatles Saved My LifeI play the Beatles One CD over and over again. They called it that because every single song on it hit number one on the charts. "Help" and "In My Life" are my two favorites. I think my least-favorite is "Ballad of John and Yoko." I'm not that big of a Yoko fan. I think she broke up the group. I'm n...
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 MEET AND GREET
Jessica Simpson is a PowderpuffI'm one of those people who is a Whitesnake fan. I'm also one of those people who went to a Michael Jackson concert when I was in my teens. He came to Chicago around 1986, and I was very excited. But my very first concert was basically a Tiffany concert. And I saw New Kids on the Block. That was the...
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 THROUGH THE FLAMES
Gang Gang Dance Rise UpNew York's Gang Gang Dance are a bird as rare and special as a phoenix–they're an avant-garde band that isn't boring, over-thought, or ugly.
Gang Gang Dance sound like music of the world–like, they aren't influenced by Ethiopian drummers or muezzin calls, they are those things (when they're...
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 YOU SO KRAYZIE
Bone's Baritone Gets His Mind RightIf you're anything like me, you weren't a fan of Bone Thugs-N-Harmony when they first came out. We were too busy figuring out the lyrics to Bootcamp's "Leflaur Leflah" to care about these tongue-flipping Midwesterners with perms and funny shower caps. Truth be told, it wasn't until their collabo wit...
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 MEXICO IS SCARY
Diamond Nights' Own PuppetsEvery issue, we have to do at least three features on "music," and to be honest, it's usually a bit of a bummer. It's not terrible, it's just kind of whatevs, like writing a five-paragraph essay defending your thesis that "cereal is a food." Everyone knows that cereal is a fucking food! That's why y...
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 ANGER
Is An EnergyThe counsellor at my anger management course once told me Britain is in a state of devolution. At first I didn't understand what devolution meant but he explained that as more teenagers leave school without qualifications (over 30%) and the number of young offenders being tried for adult-crimes keep...
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 DEAR DIARY
Entry: 9/11/20019/11/2001
Dear Diary,
Today four Palestinian's hijacked US airplanes. Two went straight into The Twin Towers, one into the Pentagon, and one got shot down or something. New York City is chaotic. Everything is shut down. World Trade Center is gone. I saw a million people walking acro...
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 TRIVIAL PURSUIT WITH JESUS
Just Another Day in the WardSee the picture? That's not ACTUALLY Jesus, that's two psychotic inpatients playing Trivial Pursuit with an attendant. And they're beating him easily because they're so smart.
I painted this after I was taken into custody after trying to kill myself during a psychotic episode. That's exactl...
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 ELECTRIC INDEPENDENCE
All my friends who live in Berlin say you'd have to be nuts to live anywhere else. Having spent a wild few days there recently, I'm inclined to agree, mainly because I was on holiday mode and pleasure was top of the menu. It's still one of the cheapest and most relaxed major cities in Europe, and wi...
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 UP IN SMOKE
Skunk DOES Make You CrazyMental health is a very tricky phenomenon.
The reason I say this is because it is a thing the average person doesn't know much about.
I was the same until it happened to me about 10 years ago when I first put a spliff in my mouth. ...
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 VICE FASHION - BERLIN HOSPITAL
ZOAR is a residence in Berlin for the handicapped and mentally disabled. Most patients there suffer from Huntington's Syndrome, a physical and mental degenerative illness caused by a genetic defect of chromosome IV. It usually erupts at the average age of 38 and affects the motor system, resulting i...
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 SCARY HOURS
Living With Demons And Cat KillersA couple of years ago I was in a club in London and a couple of girls spiked my drink. I've never been the same since. I feel like I've recovered but my life has never been the same.
When they spiked my drink I started to hallucinate. I don't know what drug it was. The hospital ran a few te...
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 GAMES
Project: SnowblindProject: Snowblind
Genre: Future War Shooter
Platform: PS2
Developer: Crystal Dynamics
Published by: Eidos
This is much like every other first person war shooter to ever exist except in ...
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 MANIC DEPRESSION
A Frustrating MessMy name is Rachel Western and I've got manic depression. Last year the familiar signs started to show up: "a lack of sleep, spending money way too much and being argumentative." Does that sound familiar to anybody?
During that time I was planning a trip to Norway and the day I was due to le...
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 GRIMEWATCH
IN THE SAME MONTH VICE THREW A HUGE PARTY WITH D Double E, Ears and Jammer in Berlin, it seems like shit is finally coming together for the grime kids....
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 CABIN FEVER
Will Take Over The WorldHave you heard of that Southampton indie band The Delays? They had a song on a mobile phone advert.
I used to be in that band when it was called Corky. But I left because they weren't rock 'n' roll enough for me. We were getting parents coming to the gigs with their children, and I just wan...
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 BOUND FOREVER
Anthony And The Johnsons Break FreeFruity New York warbler Antony has the craziest voice you'll ever hear. When he opens his mouth to sing, this freakishly beautiful force of nature gushes out of him, like he's possessed by Nina Simone and Diamanda Galas or he's being used as a conduit by a higher being. For a stocky 34-year-old whit...
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 WEST END HORROSHOW
Snow White Say No To Heroin & CrackSnow White's "Bored Somewhat Detached" debut sounds like if crackheads with big scabs on the back of their necks had covered "Silver Machine" and changed the lyrics.
In reality, the band are four quite well-to-do indie kids who host the White Heat club on Old Burlington Street in London's f...
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 DEEP IN THE JUNGLE
Afrirampo Get TribalWith a moniker that literally means 'naked rock,' Afrirampo have a lot to live up to. And they're pulling it off. Their out-of-control, avant-spazz wildfire first hit the underground in Japan, then the cognoscenti in the USA, then the music nerds in Europe. In little more than six months, Afrirampo ...
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 I WANT MY DVDS
Caligula, The Weather Underground, Bill Hicks - Live, Word Wars, Metallica: Some Kind Of Monster, Snoop Dogg: Puff Puff Pass Tour...
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 GRINDING METAL
Whitehorse Test Your PatienceHow much you like Whitehorse will probably depend on the length of your attention span. If you can't hold out between chord changes on Black Sabbath's song of the same name then you're probably fucked. Whitehorse are the metal pulse slowed to two beats per minute and drenched in reverb. One epic, dr...
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 SNAKES AND LADDERS
There's so much new music getting released every minute that at the end of each month we're basically bursting at the seams. It can get pretty ugly so we have gone into solution mode and decided to patch together a regular column to highlight some of these albums and artists. New, old, re-issue; all...
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 DOOMS DAY DISCO
Of all twenty first century musical wackos I can think of, Londoner Nathan J Whitey is the one I'm most impressed with right now. He's the kind of fucked up basement rock star that A.R.E. Weapons dream of being. Whitey's story is that he used to be a journalist, got broke, lived in the streets and t...
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 ONLINE RAT JAR
An old intern found this disgusting dead rat on the yard next to our office. We weren't sure what to do with it, so we kept it in a bag outside our backdoor for a few weeks. But after the big amount of reader input on the gross jar 2.0 we decided the only responsible thing was to put it in a jar, po...
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